April 2, 2019
“Give me a chance that’s all I ask. I am a hard worker and you’ll see, I have a brilliant mind.
It has been officially 4 months since we embarked on our cross country move to California. I am still job searching and that has been super painful. This has also given me time….tons of time to make music, share music and develop my brand. I’ve been working very hard and plan to release this new album by MAY!!!!! In the midst of all this work I’ve also been doing some soul searching and needed to write about it. Here you have it my first blog post.
Sharing is super hard, woah!!! My thoughts at times block me from sharing my music, my passion and even myself with others. I’ve had to take time and ask “why?.” Why did I become afraid? What happened to me? Why is sharing my biggest fear? I’ve come to the conclusion that sharing isn’t my biggest fear… rejection is. I feel clouded by judgements from my past. My creative process has stalled. I believe there is something some pain that I need to recall. I can’t run and can’t even hide from it. It feels so near, so true and so suffocating.
I have come to a place over the last four months where rejection doesn’t matter anymore even though it taunts me. It breathes down my neck and sits right in front of my face.
It doesn’t matter because sharing brings healing, it confronts rejection and gives it no place. It also heals others. Get out there and share.